LADY S1CCNESSx3

today; 12/6/09

ooohweemartina:

today my sister told my parents i did drugs. as my dad was choking me, slapping and punching me everywhere. i was crying so hard. as i fell to the floor, i was being dragged and hair pulled. i got to a point where i felt like i couldnt breathe and started to scream for help. as one of my friends, shyanne was in the room next door. i dont know if she left before i was screaming for help. as my mom and younger siblings walked in the room, my mom tried to stop my dad. all my older sister can say was “SHE DESERVES THIS”. and earlier that day she sayd “when you die of overdose ill be laughing”’. my dad stopped when i got to the floor and started shaking and rocking in one place, crying. i told them i hate my life. all my siblings left my room, and my parents got on the floor with me. he gave me a hug and asked me when the last time i did drugs. i told him last night, and he ask we why. i told him because i hate my life. he told me he loves me. my mom told me she loves me. they asked me to stop, i will stop, i told them. he checked my face and arms to see if i was hurt, he apologized and said he lost it when he heard i did drugs. he asked me if i wanted anything and he’ll get it for me, i told him i want to go to therapy. hes taking me to therapy. they said they loved me repeatedly, and that they always will and to not do anything stupid. we both were on the ground, i was crying and he was wiping my tears. they saiid i can talk to them about anything, and whatever i need, just tell them. He sent me to bed and gave me back my phone. my mom went in my room and got me clothes, and turnt the light off and closed the door. my dad came in to say he loved me over and over again, and told me to sleep. i hate it when people say i disrespect my older sister, when she starts all this shit. And all she can say when i was on the floor shaking and screaming for help, crying so damn hard, was “SHE DESERVES THIS”. WELL BITCH, shut the fuck up. i fucken hate you. on her tumblr and everything, people ask me why im so disrespectful to her and all this shit. because you dont even know what its like.  My 3 younger siblings came in my room after all that, and asked if i was hungry and that they would make me food. i told them no and they wished me goodnight. goodnight tumblr.

 :( I love you baby. Imma kill that btch cuhz. I bang it.

don't get mad when a girl cares too much, start to worry when she starts to not give a fuck

beverlybarcelon:

katrinamariel:

mimitang:

xxmza:

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bryspace:

Don’t you hate when you try to get over an ex then when you finally chose to say you are &you get with someone else, you think everything will go good but in the end you still want your ex back and you realize the new guy just played with your heart? what the hell is that? and don’t you hate how sometimes you just want to be over everything because dating seems so overrated? but then you notice you fucken can’t do that because either way you miss your ex and miss being wanted and miss just being with a guy! and don’t you hate how when you and that new someone break up, you realize that your ex was WAY better in so many ways possible? but then again, worse in so many ways? don’t you hate how you’d want to try to work things out with your ex, but it’s like IMPOSSIBLE because sometimes people would hate you if you did, but you keep constantly thinking about doing it? and don’t you hate how you can just HATE boys for stressin’ you out like this? and don’t you hate when at some point you just want to talk to your ex about it but you don’t want it to seem like you desperately want him back because you’d talk to him after you broke up with your new guy? and don’t you hate how you wonder if maybe staying single would be good? but then you keep thinking, ‘maybe trying getting back together with him would be better’? and don’t you hate how maybe, just maybe your ex could be totally, completely over you for everything you have done? DON’T YOU JUST HATE THAT?! and don’t you hate how boys can bring close friends closer, and closer friends farther? WTFFFFFFFF. And lastly, don’t you just hate how maybe, just maybe.. you’ve realized you still love your ex.

im scared

shyannenl:

to tell you the things that run across my mind all fucking day. i wish i could just tell you, and get it over with.

once again, i fucked up.

Every qirl has that one boy, that they'll never qet over. That one quy that makes you lauqh all the time. That one that qives you butterflies just when someone mentions his name. That one who remembers all the stupid thinqs you say & reminds you about it months from now. That one who has his name written all over your heart. That one who you compare to everyone. That one you never qet sick of talking or hearinq about. That one you cry over & over about. That one that no one can understand "why him." That one everyone thinks you can do better than. That one you ask why her & not me. That one when you first saw him you knew you loved him.

deenabby:

christinetruong:

wtfleah:

shawnandjohn:

thattoneegirl:

naly:

ayellison:

hisfutureinaskirt:

dyarinaaa:

cindyrs:

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mmm, i haaad “that one boy”.

hm i never been thru this kinda phase before. but i well soon. D: but i  noe how u girls feel :l

12658.) Rebuttal: I don't think love is just another lie, to be completely honest. Love isn't being inflatuated or heartsick or simply young. Love is whatever you want it to be, because we're not all the same, our lives swim in different waters, and our heartbeats never collide. So stop saying that we don't know what love is. We're young, and unique, and beautiful, and wholesomely, in love.

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12661.) Sometimes when we fight, you forget that I'm your girlfriend. You talk to me as if I'm an ordinary freak and that hurts me a lot, you know. I just wish you won't forget my place, because your words hurt me a lot.

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12682.) I have relationship issues. I can't stay with a guy more then a month...I think I'm scared of commitment, there, i admitted it!

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I miss

beverlybarcelon:

my #1 Girl / Ride or Die, Mercedes LLK Manichanh

AWH<3 I misss you too!